more utaite feelings

... they're all I seem to be talking about recently, huh. sorry~ 

skiving off from working on my fhq zine fic & changero sonic report to come write some musings and thoughts that i've been turning over in my mind recently. I seem to always be having thoughts about my fandoms and the people I idolise, hmm. as I grow up I feel like fandom has become so integral to who I am as a person that introspecting on fandom is in a way personal introspection as well.

anyway, some fleeting thoughts I've been entertaining ever since changero sonic happened and faneru's revival happened. also, my overall respect and thoughts re: kosan, shinsan, and the roles they play in my life, as well as the role of utaite fandom in the greater scheme of my fandom life. 

I'm quite tired so not all of these will be as elaborated as usual (,, I think). and probably a lot of talking in circles.

( ramble ramble )